My Self Love Journey & One Incredible Journal

This year I made the goal of self love. I wanted to look after my health more, treat myself more kindly. Take care of my feelings. This is something that isn’t easy for me. 

I have a pretty defective body, one that I feel let’s me down. I see myself as quite a spritely person, someone who would love to have energy. My body on the other hand is a fairly sickly one. At 16 I was diagnosed with a number of heart issues, both of which will need fixing at some point in my life through open heart surgery. Last year in may I went through probably the darkest time of my life, I spend two weeks in hospital after nearly dying with then undiagnosed Ulcerative Colitis, I was anemic,dehydrated, severely malnourished, had a heart rate of 190 . Since then I feel my body has really changed. I’m sick a lot more, often feel unwell, struggle with low energy and feel so much more fragile than I ever have before. 

This is why I didn’t treat my body great – I was and at times, still am mad at it. And even now as I write this on my much better lifestyle. Healthier food, daily exercise, drinking more water a day. I still end up in the doctors with the side effects of chronic Illness. This week, inflamed and collapsing veins. Woo! 

I stumbled upon a Instagram a good month ago. The name I stumbled upon was Kelly Terranova @love.yourself.lean (please click!). Kelly documented her story about hitting rock bottom seeing her mother struggle with Huntington’s Disease and learning that she too had a 50% chance of inheriting it too. She speaks about her journey to self love and how we should all love and nourish ourselves. Her story resonated with me, why should I not look after my body? Even though it is a sickly one, it still gets up and fights for me every day? It still loves me, why shouldn’t I love it? 

To help with my self love journey I picked up a copy of her Love Yourself Lean Journal. A 365 page a day journal to document gratitude, love and health. It focuses on our personal spiritual, physical, mental and emotional health.


The journal is beautiful and really well made. With study pages and beautiful gold embellishment. This journal has hashtags on Instagram so you can speak to other people with this book, send words of encouragement and kindness. It’s a family around the world of caring people. You are not alone in your journey ever! 

Here’s some pictures – I’ve already started colouring mine in!




I also love how Kelly is also always there, liking your photos, updating her page with thanks and encouragement for us. She’s now also doing live chats on Facebook which I find wonderful and so very helpful. 

I feel as though this journal has really helped me to stay humbled and grateful towards myself and my body. Even when my body has its broken days. I really hope you take a look at Kelly’s page and maybe even purchase a journal for yourself. It was the best thing I’ve done this year.

I just want to Thank you – Kelly, for having this journal available, you have no idea how much of a help it is! 

Guys please check her out! Go to her website here!

Speak soon,
Terri 

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Sylvia Plath.


How do you even begin to write about how much a person you admire. That person who inspires and provokes your character subconsciously. Today I felt the need to write about my admiration of poet and novelist Sylvia Plath.
This all comes from the fact that today I learned that Kirsten Dunst is directing the new “The Bell Jar” movie. This both shocked,excited and worried me a little. I hope she does a good job of portraying this book as a movie. I hope they make the book, which is semi biographical a beautiful homage to her. Though one of the most influential writers of the 20th century, I haven’t physically met many non-booklovers who have heard her or ” The Bell Jar”. If this film hits the cinema I want it to beautifully honour and create interest in this woman not leave people feeling like they don’t want or need to learn about this woman or her books and poems. 
Born in Boston, Massachusetts on October 27th 1932 she studied at a number of colleges before moving to England to study and obtained a scholarship to Cambridge University and wrote articles for the student newspaper . At a party whilst studying she first met her husband to be, fellow poet Ted Hughes they married in 1952 and went on to have two children, Frieda and Nicholas. They divorced in 1962. In 1963, The Bell Jar was published a month before her death by suicide. It would take 9 years for this book to be published in the US. 


The Bell Jar is raw, it’s is honest and unapologetic. It’s themes, dark, taboo incredibly modern and relevant even now 53 years later. The Bell Jar tells the story of young Ester Greenwood and her determination to not live the life expected of her. It follows her coming of age experiences with a rawness and her harrowing decent into mental illness. 
The book itself mirrors Plath’s life, In many parts. It’s a story written from experience. She struggled from a very young age with sadness and depression. Her Poem’s – published posthumously, Ariel also speaks about these struggles. 
What I admire about this woman is just how outspoken and honest she was about her struggles, in a time that mentioning such things would be taboo. She broke her way into a predominantly male role. Her death being so early, makes me sad that we never got to see any other novels, never read more prose and poems. I wish she lived to become the acclaimed writer she deserved to be. It makes me sad that people know her as that one who killed herself. She was so much more than that. 

How do you even begin to write about how much a person you admire. That person who inspires and provokes your character subconsciously. Today I felt the need to write about my admiration of poet and novelist Sylvia Plath.
This all comes from the fact that today I learned that Kirsten Dunst is directing the new “The Bell Jar” movie. This both shocked,excited and worried me a little. I hope she does a good job of portraying this book as a movie. I hope they make the book, which is semi biographical a beautiful homage to her. Though one of the most influential writers of the 20th century, I haven’t physically met many non-booklovers who have heard her or ” The Bell Jar”. If this film hits the cinema I want it to beautifully honour and create interest in this woman not leave people feeling like they don’t want or need to learn about this woman or her books and poems. 
Born in Boston, Massachusetts on October 27th 1932 she studied at a number of colleges before moving to England to study and obtained a scholarship to Cambridge University and wrote articles for the student newspaper . At a party whilst studying she first met her husband to be, fellow poet Ted Hughes they married in 1952 and went on to have two children, Frieda and Nicholas. They divorced in 1962. In 1963, The Bell Jar was published a month before her death by suicide. It would take 9 years for this book to be published in the US. 
The Bell Jar is raw, it’s is honest and unapologetic. It’s themes, dark, taboo incredibly modern and relevant even now 53 years later. The Bell Jar tells the story of young Ester Greenwood and her determination to not live the life expected of her. It follows her coming of age experiences with a rawness and her harrowing decent into mental illness. 
The book itself mirrors Plath’s life, In many parts. It’s a story written from experience. She struggled from a very young age with sadness and depression. Her Poem’s – published posthumously, Ariel also speaks about these struggles. 
What I admire about this woman is just how outspoken and honest she was about her struggles, in a time that mentioning such things would be taboo. She broke her way into a predominantly male role. Her death being so early, makes me sad that we never got to see any other novels, never read more prose and poems. I wish she lived to become the acclaimed writer she deserved to be. It makes me sad that people know her as that one who killed herself. She was so much more than that. 
I have a tattoo in homage of this remarkable woman, for all to see on my wrist. I always get asked what it is and where the words come from. If telling people about her and encouraging them look her up makes even one person read her book. I will be happy. She inspires me to be honest about my battles, not hide them. She inspires me to push boundaries and not be ashamed of who I am. She inspires me to not make the same mistake and keep on fighting. 

“I took at deep breath and listened to the old bray of my heart. I am, I am, I am.”
I have a tattoo in homage of this remarkable woman, for all to see on my wrist. I always get asked what it is and where the words come from. If telling people about her and encouraging them look her up makes even one person read her book. I will be happy. I also get asked if I have a thistle because I’m Scottish… I’m not, it’s a drawing of hers haha! 

“I took at deep breath and listened to the old bray of my heart. I am, I am, I am.”
You can purchase The Bell Jar here… and  Ariel… here

The Four Books That Changed My Life


Hello Lovlies,

I’ve been doing a lot of beauty and skincare related blog posts recently, so I thought that I would switch it up abit. I. A huge book reader, I’ve read hundreds – but out of all those books that I’ve delved into there are only four that I feel had an enormous impact on me.

Those books though different in story, all come down to the same emotions, anxiety, fear and love. These books changed my perspective on life, took me to a different world and of all things made me feel. Two of these books I relate to so much I got them tattooed. 

Right so in no order, onto the books! I’m not doing reviews, these are just short descriptions of the books. I really want you to read them for yourself, without another persons opinions in mind. 

The Time Travelers Wife – Audrey Niffenegger

The book that you will always remember. Nothing like the film! 

Synopsis : “This is the extraordinary love story of Clare and Henry who met when Clare was six and Henry was thirty-six, and were married when Clare was twenty-two and Henry thirty. Impossible but true, because Henry suffers from a rare condition where his genetic clock periodically resets and he finds himself pulled suddenly into his past or future. In the face of this force they can neither prevent nor control, Henry and Clare’s struggle to lead normal lives is both intensely moving and entirely unforgettable.” – The Book Depository

This is probably the book I have read the most, it’s a book you think about for months after reading. It’s written in first person, through the eyes of our two main characters. It’s brutal, frustrating, bittersweet and absolutely beautiful. I cry every time I read it, my heart aches. As you progress through this book,yes it’s a long one, you begin to feel like you know these people almost to the point of being best friends. You know there fears, worries and dreams. I’ve never read a book similar to it. It says it’s a love story, but it’s far from soppy and so much more than that. 

We Have Always Lived In The Castle – Shirley Jackson

A thriller with a hidden story 

Synopsis : “Living in the Blackwood family home with only her sister Constance and her Uncle Julian for company, Merricat just wants to preserve their delicate way of life. But ever since Constance was acquitted of murdering the rest of the family, the world isn’t leaving the Blackwoods alone. And when Cousin Charles arrives, armed with overtures of friendship and a desperate need to get into the safe, Merricat must do everything in her power to protect the remaining family.” – Amazon

This is a strange little short read which spoke to me on a deeper level. Shirley Jackson wrote her pain into this book, she wrote her fear and worry. To me this is ultimately about isolation an anxiety. Two of the things I know on a personal level. Now I’m not saying that I’m a murderer who locked herself in her castle but I certainly took emotion from the feelings expressed in this book. If you like horror/thrillers it’s definatly worth a read. Her writing style is beautiful some sentences so gorgeous and innocent you can’t forget them. 

Memoirs of a Geisha – Arthur Golden

The book that transports you to another world and leaves you breathless
Synopsis : “This story is a rare and utterly engaging experience. It tells the extraordinary story of a geisha -summoning up a quarter century from 1929 to the post-war years of Japan’s dramatic history, and opening a window into a half-hidden world of eroticism and enchantment, exploitation and degradation. A young peasant girl is sold as servant and apprentice to a renowned geisha house. She tells her story many years later from the Waldorf Astoria in New York. Her memoirs conjure up the perfection and the ugliness of life behind rice-paper screens, where young girls learn the arts of geisha – dancing and singing, how to wind the kimono, how to walk and pour tea, and how to beguile the land’s most powerful men.” 

Let me start by staying that Arthur Golden paints a picture so vividly you could swear that you were there. Though the story is not 100% true to actual geisha it’s close. You grow up with this little peasant girl, you know her so well. She’s a strong female character a force to be reckoned with. This book is comical at times, it makes you laugh – but it also makes you grieve, feel anger and heartbreak. If you read only one of these books I couldn’t recommend this one more. It takes you to a dying world a disappearing way of life. It tells you her story In so much beautiful detail you feel like you’ve lived a geishas life yourself. I’ve read this book so many times and will do many more. 

The Bell Jar – Sylvia Plath

The book who’s words are on my arm. The woman who inspires me most.

Synopsis : “When Esther Greenwood wins an internship on a New York fashion magazine in 1953, she is elated, believing she will finally realise her dream to become a writer. But in between the cocktail parties and piles of manuscripts, Esther’s life begins to slide out of control. She finds herself spiralling into serious depression as she grapples with difficult relationships and a society which refuses to take her aspirations seriously. Sylvia Plath’s only novel, was originally published in 1963 under the pseudonym Victoria Lucas. The novel is partially based on Plath’s own life and descent into mental illness, and has become a modern classic.” 

Sylvia Plath is one of my biggest inspirations. Always. Before her death (sadly from suicide  aged 30) Sylvia forced her way into a male dominated role. She was honest raw and unapologetic. She had suffered with depression from a very early age and wrote about it truthfully, in a time when mental illness was taboo and completely misunderstood. This book mirrors Plaths Life for the most part and her writing style is engrossing. If this book does one thing, it makes you want to know more about this spectacular woman, you will want to read her poetry, admire her drawings and wish more than anything that she could have been saved.  The Tati I have in honour to her is my most simple. But the one I get asked about the most and the one I hold dearest. If you’ve ever felt not good enough, if you’ve ever struggled with mental health this book will speak to you. Empower you to fight? 

“I took. Deep breath and listened to the old bray on my heart. I am, I am, I am.”


Terri

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Little August Favorites! 

Can you believe it’s the end of August already?! 

This month has been a little boring favorites wise, mainly due to the fact that I didn’t buy too many new products and what I have used tended to be a little samey. 

But regardless! Here’s a few things I’ve been enjoying.

Beauty


1. Soap & Glory All is Calm Green Colour Corrector £8.I’ve mentioned this in a post before regarding colour correcting (see here) I use this pretty much all the time. Used under your base, be it BB Cream or Foundation this little guy removes redness without showing through base products or changing the consistency or finish.  I haven’t ever saw this in store but I purchases mine from the boots website. Get it here! 

2. Estée Lauder Doublewear Compact in Ecru  1 £33. I’m not gonna lie, I really didn’t like Doublewear foundation. I couldn’t get a colour that matched and it was just too matte and full coverage for me. This however is gorgeous! It has a dewy finish and is light to medium finish. Only downside is it is quite costly and you get less product than you do usually in a foundation ( 12ml instead of 30ml)

3. Lime Crime Perlees lipstick in Lady (limited edition sorry!)  This came out for valentines however I’m in love now. Not too much to say about this other than its stunning. Reds are easily my favorite lip colour and this is one of the prettiest. It’s a strawberry red and is a pearly metallic. It’s so pretty on super pale skins. It’s no longer on the website but other colours are. See here! The swatch just doesn’t do it justice! 


Skincare


Two Korean brands this month…sorry! They just do it better! 

1. Neogen Real Fresh Foam Cleanser Cranberry £14.49. I’ve only just began using this but I really am enough it. Made for sensitive skin this foam cleanser claims to be non irritating and wash away impurities with cranberry water and natural nutrients. It certainly doesn’t leave my skin feeling tight or dry atall. It also has real cranberrys in the bottom. Preserved perfectly by the cleanser itself. Anti aging much? 


2. Cosrx BHA Blackhead Power Liquid £16.01. This is a treatment applied to skin after cleansing and toning. Made to be used on the blackhead / acne prone areas of your face for me my nose mostly. BHA stands for Beta Hydroxy Acid and helps with exfoliation and fighting breakouts. With 4% Betaine Salicylate (the BHA ingredient) it is gentle enough for normal skins daily. Those with more sensitive skin may have to use it less. If interested please read more on this product, it’s amazing, with noticeable difference in spots, pores and blackheads within days. My skin texture has greatly improved thanks to this holy grail product! 

I’m doing the #septemberskinchallenge next month- a different product each day. Look out for this! I will post weekly on here and daily on my Instagram I’m so excited to do this, I adore skincare! Tag along! 

Others!


I’m currently reading The Secret Life of Marilyn Monroe. A big Marilyn fan since my early teens there isn’t much I didn’t already know in this book but it is written beautifully. They recently turned this book into a 2 part drama on tv under the same name and it was also fantastic. Worth a read. 

On Netflix I went from one extreme to another. I have been enjoying the K drama – Atelier. It’s cheesey comical and entertaining. I’ve been enjoying it! 


I also finished the second series of Scream this month also! Roll on October! Did you guys guess the killer? 


I hope your having a lovely day, it’s super sunny here!

Terri

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Some June Favorites


Happy Sunday lovelies! 

I know it’s quite late to be doing a June favorites but I’ve only just got round to it! 

Last months favorites are a mix of beauty, skincare and entertainment! So let’s get started! 

  • Innisfree Eco Daily Safety Sunblock SPF35

Regardless of if it’s sunny or not I always use skincare. I got told reccomended this and I do quite like it. Doesn’t make your skin greasy or grey cast. Isn’t thick atall, feels nice and light. High SPF also, they also do this in an SPF 50. 

  • Laneige Water Sleeping Mask


An overnight leave on mask from Korea. It has cult status and I can see why. My skin is soothed and noticeably brighter and plumped up! I use it 2 times a week and can’t imagine my skincare without it! More In depth post coming up! 

  • Lush Rosy Cheeks face mask


Took my 5 pots back and gave it a try. It smells beautiful and made my skin nice and soft. Will purchase this one again though my all time favourite is Cosmetic Warrior

  • NYX Soft Matte Lip Creams


Need I say more! Super affordable, long lasting and cruelty free. They have amazing colours too! Here I have Athens, Cannes and Ibiza.  They can be a little drying which is obvious due to them being matte so a good Lipbalm is needed firsthand! 

  • Catfish and the Bottlemen’s new album The Ride 


Loved their first album, love their second just as much. Really need to see these guys live, tickets ran out in literally a minuet when me and my friend tried to get them!

  • Revels

Just mmmm… I’ve ate a lot of these…

  • The Conjuring 2


My favorite horror film used to be The Conjuring, after watching this it instantly  jumped into the first place position. It was brilliant! Based on the notorious UK Enfield Hauntings which have fascinated me since my early teens ( yes I was a little Wednesday Adams) Creepy and some good jump scares! Definitely worth a watch! 

  • And finally Getting engaged

Just eee! I’m so happy haha! Not much else to say haha.

That’s it for today! 

Hope you liked! Speak soon.

Terri

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What I’ve done this week and some favourites


Hello lovelies! How are all of you? Today I thought I’d do a quick post of some of my antics this week with a couple of favourites thrown in. 

The first thing I did this week was watch the sequel to my favourite horror film. The Conjuring 2 came out this week and I loved it! It was even better than the first and I was gripped to my seat, there’s a few great jump scares in there too to make it even more fun! If you love horror films like me, you should definatly give it a watch! I want to go back and watch again! 


I’ve also gotten engrossed in another K-Drama… I’m sorry! This one is also on Netflix and is called Click your Heart. It’s super cheesy, 1 cute clumsy transfer  student and 4 hunky talented boys fighting for her. But it’s just so funny and cute and at 15 minuets an episode it’s easy to watch and doesn’t mean I’m stuck to the iPad for 16 hours haha


I also took a visit to the new NYX stand in my local boots and picked up a new favourite. I picked up the Soft Matte Lip Cream in Cannes £5.50. It’s a dark rosy brown and is such a lovely colour, a little drying but that’s expected I’ve wore it pretty much all week! This was my first ever NYX product and I’m impressed! I also picked up their famous jumbo eye pencil in Milk of which I’m yet to try out. I’m also glad to see they are a drug store brand that are cruelty free, as unfortunate the majority of drugstore aren’t (perhaps this is changing now!)  Which of their products do you guys recommend? As I certainly want to pick up more! 


The final thing I did was take a trip to our local garden centre with my parents. Going places with just my mum and dad is something that doesn’t happen often as we are all pretty busy, but today we found the time. We picked flowers for the garden and had Tea in the cafe and it was lovely. 

  
Right now I’m off to pack for mine and my boyfriends holiday break, we’re heading to centerparcs for 5 days to chill in a little log cabin! I’m so excited! I’ve got a few ideas for blog posts so look out for those! 

What have you done today? Any favourites that you want to share? I love to read your comments! 

Terri 

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Several things I loved in April…

  
Think it’s time I did a little favourites post. This has a mix of things in some strange haha! Let’s get started.

In beauty I have been loving Lime Crime’s Venus + Venus 2 Pallettes  -£22.41 each These are truly amazing, the colours unusual yet beautiful and honestly pigmented isn’t isn’t the word for these Pallettes, the colour pay off is insane. Below I have taken a picture of the actual colours. Top pallete is the Venus pallete, bottom Venus 2. One is pink based the other much darker. They currently have a discounted prices bundle of both available on there website if your interested!  Despite the craziness they really are wearable. Think I shall do a look post with these! 

  
No filter needed!! 

I have also been loving these invisibobbles £3.75 A lot less damage on the hair than the standard bobbles. A simple idea but really effective. No more broken hairs! 

  
Moving on to random favorites:

  
First of all is a Netflix series called Good Morning Call. It’s a k-drama and its so addictive. It’s so over the top, like anime in real life. Nao one of our main characters is just so adorable. Its about two school pupils who accidentally rent the same apartment, love ensues haha! It’s in Korean and subtitled, just incase that puts you off but don’t let it! I’ve watched all the episodes in 2 days! 

My second Favorite random item is Konpetio. This is a Japanese sugar candy –  literally just sugar haha! They are super crunchy and totally delicious! They are what the spot sprites eat in spirited away – another selling point to me hehe! 

  
My final Favorite is probably the most weird, they are kinda creepy in a cute way haha! They are called Sonny Angels £6.50 and they are collectables blind boxed figures. They come in loads of different styles but my favorites are the animals, the fact you don’t know which one your getting makes them even more fun. My boyfriend brought me one first after seeing them and knowing me, after that I couldn’t stop collecting! 

  
Not everyone’s cup of tea, but I think they are really adorable and reminiscent of the 50’s kitch Kewpie dolls. I love weird things like these haha! 

What are your favorites this month? Please link your posts! 

Enjoy the sunshine! 

Terri

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