A step in the right direction

Hello,

I took break from blogging last week. Truth is I’ve just been so busy! But have no fear I’ve got some really fun things happening next week! Look out for that post! Today’s post is more of a serious one. 
To some this may seem simple – just deleting an app but to me this was a really hard decision. I have a secret and today I decided I needed to let go to the last of it. For years now I have been calorie obsessed I have counted every little thing I have put into my body and ripped myself apart with it. I would eat so few calories and still it was too much. I would wonder why I felt so lifeless all the time. I ruined my body and my health. It took until I got diagnosed ulcerative colitis to realise that my body actually needed calories and nutrients. It scared me more than what doctors had told me in the past. I weighed so little when i left hospital despite the fact I had gained weight whilst in there. Since then I’ve stuck to my vegetarianism as before but no longer fuss about what I eat. I ensure that I eat a healthy calorie count and no longer beat myself up about it. I no longer live with numbers constantly in my head. I don’t freak out over a slice of bread or the calories in a banana,  I now enjoy filling my body with nutritious food and love breakfast time! Loosing this devastating app was my final step to progress. I’m proud. I feel stronger, fitter and more with it. I’m happier now despite the odd setback. I still need to remind myself it’s ok sometimes and I need to eat to stay healthy but I’m a new person to who I once was. 

Sometimes something not great needs to happen to change your perspective on life. It needs to happen to make you realise what needs to be done. 

Terri 

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Sylvia Plath.


How do you even begin to write about how much a person you admire. That person who inspires and provokes your character subconsciously. Today I felt the need to write about my admiration of poet and novelist Sylvia Plath.
This all comes from the fact that today I learned that Kirsten Dunst is directing the new “The Bell Jar” movie. This both shocked,excited and worried me a little. I hope she does a good job of portraying this book as a movie. I hope they make the book, which is semi biographical a beautiful homage to her. Though one of the most influential writers of the 20th century, I haven’t physically met many non-booklovers who have heard her or ” The Bell Jar”. If this film hits the cinema I want it to beautifully honour and create interest in this woman not leave people feeling like they don’t want or need to learn about this woman or her books and poems. 
Born in Boston, Massachusetts on October 27th 1932 she studied at a number of colleges before moving to England to study and obtained a scholarship to Cambridge University and wrote articles for the student newspaper . At a party whilst studying she first met her husband to be, fellow poet Ted Hughes they married in 1952 and went on to have two children, Frieda and Nicholas. They divorced in 1962. In 1963, The Bell Jar was published a month before her death by suicide. It would take 9 years for this book to be published in the US. 


The Bell Jar is raw, it’s is honest and unapologetic. It’s themes, dark, taboo incredibly modern and relevant even now 53 years later. The Bell Jar tells the story of young Ester Greenwood and her determination to not live the life expected of her. It follows her coming of age experiences with a rawness and her harrowing decent into mental illness. 
The book itself mirrors Plath’s life, In many parts. It’s a story written from experience. She struggled from a very young age with sadness and depression. Her Poem’s – published posthumously, Ariel also speaks about these struggles. 
What I admire about this woman is just how outspoken and honest she was about her struggles, in a time that mentioning such things would be taboo. She broke her way into a predominantly male role. Her death being so early, makes me sad that we never got to see any other novels, never read more prose and poems. I wish she lived to become the acclaimed writer she deserved to be. It makes me sad that people know her as that one who killed herself. She was so much more than that. 

How do you even begin to write about how much a person you admire. That person who inspires and provokes your character subconsciously. Today I felt the need to write about my admiration of poet and novelist Sylvia Plath.
This all comes from the fact that today I learned that Kirsten Dunst is directing the new “The Bell Jar” movie. This both shocked,excited and worried me a little. I hope she does a good job of portraying this book as a movie. I hope they make the book, which is semi biographical a beautiful homage to her. Though one of the most influential writers of the 20th century, I haven’t physically met many non-booklovers who have heard her or ” The Bell Jar”. If this film hits the cinema I want it to beautifully honour and create interest in this woman not leave people feeling like they don’t want or need to learn about this woman or her books and poems. 
Born in Boston, Massachusetts on October 27th 1932 she studied at a number of colleges before moving to England to study and obtained a scholarship to Cambridge University and wrote articles for the student newspaper . At a party whilst studying she first met her husband to be, fellow poet Ted Hughes they married in 1952 and went on to have two children, Frieda and Nicholas. They divorced in 1962. In 1963, The Bell Jar was published a month before her death by suicide. It would take 9 years for this book to be published in the US. 
The Bell Jar is raw, it’s is honest and unapologetic. It’s themes, dark, taboo incredibly modern and relevant even now 53 years later. The Bell Jar tells the story of young Ester Greenwood and her determination to not live the life expected of her. It follows her coming of age experiences with a rawness and her harrowing decent into mental illness. 
The book itself mirrors Plath’s life, In many parts. It’s a story written from experience. She struggled from a very young age with sadness and depression. Her Poem’s – published posthumously, Ariel also speaks about these struggles. 
What I admire about this woman is just how outspoken and honest she was about her struggles, in a time that mentioning such things would be taboo. She broke her way into a predominantly male role. Her death being so early, makes me sad that we never got to see any other novels, never read more prose and poems. I wish she lived to become the acclaimed writer she deserved to be. It makes me sad that people know her as that one who killed herself. She was so much more than that. 
I have a tattoo in homage of this remarkable woman, for all to see on my wrist. I always get asked what it is and where the words come from. If telling people about her and encouraging them look her up makes even one person read her book. I will be happy. She inspires me to be honest about my battles, not hide them. She inspires me to push boundaries and not be ashamed of who I am. She inspires me to not make the same mistake and keep on fighting. 

“I took at deep breath and listened to the old bray of my heart. I am, I am, I am.”
I have a tattoo in homage of this remarkable woman, for all to see on my wrist. I always get asked what it is and where the words come from. If telling people about her and encouraging them look her up makes even one person read her book. I will be happy. I also get asked if I have a thistle because I’m Scottish… I’m not, it’s a drawing of hers haha! 

“I took at deep breath and listened to the old bray of my heart. I am, I am, I am.”
You can purchase The Bell Jar here… and  Ariel… here

The place to go for Candy & Kawaii

  
My love of Japanese candy started early last year and. ever since I have been on the search for a website that sells unusual treats that you can’t get everywhere. 

To me the packaging is just so adorable and the flavours are, unique, sometimes crazy and delicious. It’s also great to take to parties, keeps everyone entertained! My friends always ask me to bring some.

 Whilst at MCM comic-con (me and my boyfriend go at least once a year)  I found the stand for Tofu Cute. 

Tofu Cute is a uk website that now has stores in convent garden and Portsmouth. It sells cute gifts and candy from Japan and East Asia.  Though I have a few of the amuse plushies from them, I mainly just buy the candy, of which they have huge variety and super cheap.

They are a wonderful website who are super helpful and quick at delivering. They currently have a free delivery when you spend £20 offer. You could get loads for £20!

Some of my favorites are the good old grape flavoured gummies – Japan love anything grape apparently and there ramune drinks. Ramune literally means soda and the peach one is to die for! The lychee is also really nice. And anything green tea macha, mmmm! 

Check out the website if your interested. Click here!

Happy snacking,

Terri

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From book mess to bookshelf…

  
Yesterday one of my two bookshelves finally gave in to the weight of my books and broke. Books poured everywhere and I was left with all this, all over the floor. I have been collecting books for so many years now and this pictured, is only half of it. Yesterday was spent resolving this nightmare .

I brought a brand new bookshelf and colour ordered all of them. Not all of them fitted onto the shelves so I need to buy another one when I make room, I like breaking up the books with stuff, I think it looks more interesting that way. 

This bookshelf is full of my favourites. The books that I’ve read over and over and loved, I eventually want to get all these books in hardback form. This is my mission.

I have quite a few books that I no longer read or look at and was wondering whether setting up a depop account would be good for selling these. I would quite like to donate most of the money made from them to charity, like 70% of proceeds. What do you guys think? 

Anyway here is a picture of after….

 Another short post today, it’s been a long day at work.
I hope you all had a lovely Sunday.

Terri

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